Life here is so BASIC. For once, all I have to worry about is what I want to do tomorrow or in the next few minutes or even the next few seconds. That is it. Its about my decisions and my own life. These four months are going to be about me, it is so simple. After an entire AMAZING weekend of just ME and what I wanted t do, I end it by talking to people from back home & I am just immediately thrown back into all the rubbish, all the stress & chaos. I am not blaming anyone, but it just makes me realize that I dont need that right now. I dont need to be back there at this point. As selfish as it sounds, I am here, and maybe Stacey is right when she told Erin, "If you can't imagine coming back home after this, then dont. Find or make yourself a way where you dont have to leave". Maybe Stacey has a point.

Not up for a post about what happened this weekend. It opened up my eyes to a lot of things though(: so hopefully I can better explain it when I am not as...exhausted. Off to read me some Robert Louis Stevenson and hopefully cash out.